At night, when the pounding in my head eases off slightly, when the huge spikes of pressure and pain in my ears retract just a little bit, when I can hear more than feel all the bass frequencies I've lost over the years and continue to lose, that is the good time. I crank up my headphones and I try to enjoy all the sound that I've lost. Just for an hour or so, before exhaustion and tiredness overtakes me. Then I sleep. And when I wake up, it's all gone again and the pain is back.