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  • Matildajunklight@mastodon.art
    Aug 7, 2026, 9:19 AM

    As I slowly process my gender feelings now I'm on HRT I am realising just how insidious it has all been:

    in my 30s I "decided" to suppress ALL the crap I was dealing with. Not least because prior to that I'd been pretty unstable. A. points out it would have been likely I'd have gotten a BPD diagnosis in my late 20s!!

    This lead to years of depersonalisation

    prior to that it had been all over the place & far more noticeable but I just had no concept of what to do about it

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  • Matildajunklight@mastodon.art
    Aug 7, 2026, 9:21 AM

    if, at that time, being trans was a broader church than "you need to live as a woman (whatever that means - is that something I'm doing now even??) and marry a man" perhaps I'd have gotten somewhere but bloody hell

    Dysphoria is a complicated thing!

    (AND if you'd have asked me just prior to starting HRT I'd have told you "oh no it doesn't really effect me" - blimey was I ever wrong (and I have been VERY wrong about a LOT of things ;-) ) )

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