it wasnt easy- I had to go to an out patient rehab program. And that was also, weirdly, kind of healing in its own way?

I was the only queer guy in an all mens support group and with the exception of one really crappy person, having healthy, open dialogue with straight men, who I think like most queers Ive a bit distrust of....was oddly healing?

Reaching a point where I was willing to open up took a long time. I wish I'd come to terms with it sooner.