Past few days have been hard for me.
I dunno. I've known that the game has been rigged for a long time now. I knew that women were disadvantaged in society. I saw the misogyny in most things down to men being the default option in character creation in games and the language we use... yeah... I got it.
But something shifted. The way like, I see all of society as this man made prison where women are just allowed certain pockets. From jobs, to recreation, to how homes are built, products are designed, laws are written, research done... it's all men focusing on men... until they have a reason to give a shit specifically about women.
And now I just have this constant burning in my chest. I'm just furious. My misandry is just out of fucking control. I'm scared, and angry, and I want to lash out and scream and try and fix shit... but I know I can't. It's not fucking fair. It's not fucking right! I just see the same fucking pattern everywhere. Men are first, women are the afterthought. Even when women are celebrated, I can't help but look at it like appeasement. I want women with actual fucking power.
But what do I do? Most men don't even see it. And even if they do, they don't see or accept just how bad it is. I'm scared I'm becoming too cynical to be logical too.