TW: mention of genitals, surgery
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When I was four years old, I told my mother I was sure I was Both a boy and a girl, not one or the other. She told me, "God made you a girl", and now I can't unhear her saying that, knowing she knew what she knew. I wonder what my life would have been like without surgery, what I might have felt or experienced, whether sex would ever have been easier to navigate for me. I wish I had the chance to know for sure.

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