Also I would really like the anhedonia to go the fuck away. It's been more and more of a presence in my life since the beginning of last year and the only thing that's changing at all is my ability to keep trying to be accessible and hopeful despite it.
That, incidentally, is gradually declining to the point where it's becoming hard to do anything at all but work and home and work and home and work and home and try to make opportunities for folks who aren't me and work and home.