Still haven't found a new home yet, though we're looking and showing up. We did see progress on the green Mazda truck, should be ready for us pretty soon. I'm feeling pretty exhausted from the home environment, and looking forward to getting into a new place that can hold my samadhi with me. Struggling to work and bake from a place of chaos with turbulent people standing in the doorway with demands I cannot satisfy. But I know there is progress even in this, while I do feel enormously triggered, I am getting back to my peace quicker and quicker.
Yesterday we got a call that a foreign woman was looking for a caregiver. We showed up and listened and very quickly understood that this was not something for us. Yes, I can feel empathy for her and the situation her husband is in. No, I will not be moving into yet another caregiving position, especially for only 300 baht a night. To take it we would have had to completely change our sleep, work and baking schedules. It felt very good to say NO, this won't work for us, good luck! Ten years ago I might have said yes. Not today!
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