Tomorrow will be 420 days since I last hung out with a friend

Literally blocked the EU commission at this point

People keep sharing AI slop in the feed to mock & laugh at, but I'd rather not see it at all.

I never actually got to wear indoor sunglasses to hide weed eyes since I started smoking as an adult without shame, but the sentiment remains.

As a weed enjoyer, fuck facebook for ruining indoor sunglasses.

Anyways I was Irish sober today when I'm usually California sober. Please clap.

If just smoking weed is "California sober", what is just drinking alcohol called? Irish sober?

I heard people are looking for them. Doesn't seem they want to be found?

Who would win?

The bank I used was eaten by another bank so I was setting up the new account. During the setup process I had to deal with the cats 2 minutes & got locked out. To unlock the account I need an ID… of the account I'm locked out of. We'll isn't that the plot of the first Saw movie 😭

FMLOL

People are cheering on the world cup games, but this one woman has been screaming instead of cheering. Just simultaneous sounds of victory & terror. Every time too.

At first I was worried I heard violence, but I think that might be just how she cheers. Terrifying.

Seeing BBC call them "torture prisons" when it's in Russia, but the US can have concentration camps where children are separated so they can be raped & trafficked, & the BBC won't call them anything.

Emoji bullet points template is leaking LinkedIn AI energy

I will note that the definitions are 80% vibes but I think it works out ok. But I'm biased since I know what *I* mean lol.

CONSIstent, coLLEctive, & mostLY = consillely. Unless there's another term that captures this, I am using this one that I just coined in my journal before publishing here. Actually I might use it even if there is another term, 'cause of the silliness embedded implying a jovial nature.

Might make the non-jovial version consicostly. Actually yes, I love that. Conscience is the cost of dissonant/negative consillely & that's phonetically close enough. Ideally there's a joy::pain connotation for the implied directions between consillely & consicostly flows.

An example is a river flowing consillely: some of it splashes/seeps out (mostly), but the rest of the water consistently & collectively flow according to its container of earth.

The political Overton window consicostly flows to the right in the US.

Are there existing terms for these concepts? I'm just so tired of generalizations being interpreted in ways that ignore the information I flattened into those terms.

Latest update on our understanding (still subject to change):

I think I am at fault here, & may have mostly been upset at the shame of being exposed, combined with fears of the wrong things being criticized (does happen). I think I've uncovered an extractive pattern of mine, where if all the right stories align & I'm feeling enough pressure (e.g. collapsing from shame), then I can connect & center my wound to extract validation/intimacy. Further evidence of this theory is that extracting intimacy is something my mom does to me.

I can notice when my mom extracts validation/intimacy because I no longer believe her stories, but I guess I must've been believing mine.

This also matches the pattern behind several other people who've left. They had extractive behavior that accumulate until it reached a point of no return before anyone noticed. Is the present theory.

If true, then the "collapse into court" phenomena I'd felt would've been happening inside each extractor's mind. Which makes sense to me because the resolution channel feeling like a graveyard would totally trigger a haunted person. & If true, if I go back on discord I'll probably be fine if I explain myself.

But if false, I'll be subjected to more shame & be unable to sleep again. Remaining fragile to this makes me unsafe, yet so does hardening in a way that doesn't contain me.

I'm in a discord server where there was a very popular member who left on bad terms. They've got a better resolution system than most, where it happens publicly so people can't use silence as shield. The problem I had with it is how quickly the entire structure collapses into court. & I can't say anything to them about it, because the un-collapsed structure is "not court".

Anyways, I read through as much as I could before I collapsed into my mirroring wounds (which wasn't much). There was a grief thread for people to process. I decided to do a voice note so I could process things, & since it was unfiltered & I hadn't read much, I said a lot of incorrect statements. I also expressed support for the ex-member (& alleged grifter).

Immediately, the space collapsed into court, & I was soon reprimanded for the length of the voice note. I reply "I can delete it" to which they responded "no", & then I started getting dog-piled about the factual inaccuracies. I get that it's a sensitive space & a sensitive topic, but it was strange how I couldn't delete the voice note & had my own sensitivities denied when I'd thought it was a space to process & vent.

I don't know what to do here. I've paused the discord app 'cause I was feeling sick from what felt like a humiliation ritual on what could've just been an "I take back my words". But also the group seems to have been doing a better job then most at keeping the space safe & honest, so I've got doubts on my end. Like am I oversimplifying to evade some deeper transgression that I'm avoiding? IDK what's ok to publicly process this since they use everything in that court, & I'm sure I'll be called in there soon.

Strangely, I've been seeing supposed leftists that like using AI, claiming cognitive assistance.

Please just block me if you use AI & think it's useful. It's one thing if you're forced to use it, & another when you believe the bullshit.

I don't want to read anything "AI helped string together". I don't want to see the art "AI helped polish". I don't want to use programs "code assisted by AI". I don't even want to interact with companies taking AI blood money.

I don't want anything to do with these modern language mimics. Disagree? Block me.

DLSS5 creates an AI filter than can change displayed content on games in real time.

"AI" in Waymos & Amazon Go ended up being humans telecommuting from exploited countries.

Tech CEOs want to enclose servers & have us log in to their servers to access our info/apps/games.

I think we're eventually going to have "AI" drones being manned by unsuspecting gamers who will be seeing a videogame overlay.