Related to last post:

I am pretty deep into burnout and trying to dig myself out while at -also- working full time feels metaphorically like trying to put out an engine fire on a plane while staying in the air.

The mess that is the corporate world doesn't really help any either.

Plus I had a taste of identity affirmation in my work and it's really hard going back knowing what alternatives are possible.

Like it feels like business doesn't have to equal corporate.

My sleep schedule has been an absolute wreck lately and I am not a fan.

Gonna be honest y'all I am feeling so absurdly tired lately. Trying to survive <gestures broadly> while also dealing with the intersection of multiple disabilities is a -lot-.

I kind of wish there was an EU equivalent. Even a twitch competitor would be preferable to the seemingly current landscape

Is anyone else bracing for the eventual attempt by the us gov to control YouTube internationally?

Thoughts on where they're going to go if successful?

Some other interesting facts:

I'm a former #VRChat dev (worked in security)

I am a VTuber over on youtube, making #ASMR content. Though I'm on temp hiatus at the moment.

I love to travel and experience new foods

I occasionally dabble in #astrophotography.

There are plenty other interesting facts but let me know what sort of things y'all would like to know?

So I guess with me trying to be active here it might be useful for me to give a quick Intro post.

I'm into #vr #scifi , languages especially #japanese and #swedish . Some of my fave video games are #KSP #Stationeers #cyberpunk and #subnautica .

I was into decentralization before it was a grift and I deeply value authentic connection.

Some of my Fave authors are #BeckyChambers and #JRRTolkein .

I also am big on feminist theory and intersectionality with disability.

I'm thinking of spending a bit more time here because bluesky is so US based. I feel like I need to diversify a bit more in case something happens to it.

Whelp server is upgraded. Very nearly thought I borked it but turns out it just needing some gentle poking to finish upgrading schema.

letters to my family: II

Many choices, some made by us in my generation, some made by people in different kinds of power, all of them made by someone with enough privilege to be afforded the luxury of a choice, have led us to this place and will continue to lead us to this place.

https://www.nixkelley.com/b/11S

letters to my family: I

I hope you know that every experience I have is immediately filtered into a list of things I want to tell you about.

https://www.nixkelley.com/b/10Y

how can we know how precious it is?

Right now it is June, and I must dance through this month even if it tries to kill me, because I am here, and we are here, and we should live as our brilliant beautiful selves.

https://www.nixkelley.com/b/x4

may the 4th be with you (I can't believe my keyboard doesn't have star wars emojis)

with an everlasting love {poem}

Sometimes there is pain layered into love but that does not make it any less true.

https://www.nixkelley.com/b/s9

wow it's already May. wtaf.

I've been in Thailand for almost two months now (almost time for tourist visa extension) and I'm getting used to it here, I think. if I can I'm going to stay longer, so long as I can successfully navigate how to do it within the Thai government parameters.

there have been so many very loud thunderstorms in the past several weeks, which I'm assuming is the way rainy season enters. it's fascinating to be in a different labs and different climate altogether.

because our choices led us here

I don't know what to say, really, except that this is so incredibly hard and none of us know how to get through it, not really.

https://www.nixkelley.com/b/px

dissolving into Light: even the least of these

I think I'm learning that even experiencing a Mystery does not mean it can be fully comprehended. The only thing we have is what we noticed, what was revealed, and how much we can remember and map into our own hearts so that we can keep it with us.

https://www.nixkelley.com/b/ny

ten things: an earthquake and the joy of fandoms

Maybe that's the best outcome of going places I've never been before. Discovering how easy it is to love the beautifulness and culture and sound of a place I've just begun to know.

https://www.nixkelley.com/b/o5

it's been A Lot here recently, although I am really enjoying being in Australia for a few months. the night sky is amazing. the sunsets are breathtaking. there are kangaroos. 10/10 stars

cw: unfiltered discussion of disowning my family of origin

https://www.nixkelley.com/b/nk