I've been doing this shit for over 30 years at this point, and watching the last refuges away from corporate nightmares run full speed towards the same, on purpose, has been disheartening in a fundamental way.

Without a place to remember "oh yeah right, I actually love everything about this" periodically, I genuinely find myself not knowing how to deal. Maybe I'm blowing it out of proportion for myself. Maybe poking at my lab and my own projects is enough. But I worry.