I'm pretty sure people generally prefer wholesome sexy vibes to the sleazy backalley redolence I tend to radiate, but I'm not sure I'm getting any closer to attaining that kind of mass marketability for my flesh.
My ass may be less cursed than the rest of me in this set, though?
Femme mode is when you have a swimsuit and a teddy bear in the shoot, right?
OH: "Violating your copyright, as a kink thing."
I so want to be able to find time to post about my current thoughts and preoccupations in detail, but with my PC running a VR setup in another room right now, I'm not getting the privacy I need to do that.
A summary :
my hot take: I want sex work to be fully legalized so sex workers can get the same legal protections as any other kind of job. because like it or not, sex work and adult entertainment is going to exist whether or not its "legal" so they should be able to access the same labor rights as other types of workers
Literally nothing in life is better than doing acid, dancing all night long, coming home, packing a bowl and then watching the sun rise. Its just the best feeling on planet earth.
I love the earth.
I love the sun.
I love the trees and the birds and all the creatures big and small.
This shit rocks. Being a human is dope actually. I love existing and I wouldnt trade it for anything.
I truly treasure every being I have ever interacted with.
I consistently choose love and nothing will ever take that away.
I promise.
this was the pic btw lol, thanx @void
Transition goals: have people be genuinely uncertain of my gender, AGAB, or whether I'm even human.
I'm pretty sure people generally prefer wholesome sexy vibes to the sleazy backalley redolence I tend to radiate, but I'm not sure I'm getting any closer to attaining that kind of mass marketability for my flesh.
My ass may be less cursed than the rest of me in this set, though?
recorded on a whim in October of 2024 🐺🌕
It's my bod
Fun in the forest 😊
the most non-binary fucking silly nude but here you go (cw full frontal and TRANS JOY)
I'm still pretty battered and scarred up between recovery from surgery, illness, accidental poisoning and life stuff, but @sacralisedacolyte helped me get some bathtub nudes.
I'm at about 1.5 years on T right now, about a year at well maintained levels, and I'm enjoying the changes it has made to my body.
This is overwhelmingly more the kind of body that I want to live in, in terms of everything from physical properties and responses to appearance.
I'm probably still a few years out from either of the other surgeries I'm considering, to give the testosterone time to make more changes, and there's more external stuff to do (so many more signs and sigils to have scrawled over me), but I increasingly see myself in images, rather than things that I desperately wish to reject.
I'm also, more than ever, painfully aware of the double standards imposed on estrogen-based bodies regarding so-called "healthy" body types and proportions, but that's probably for another post.
It took me a long time to get here, but puberty in middle age is going pretty well.
The problem with having a bunch of schizotypal magical thinking traits is that it's really hard to tell if the someone-walking-over-your-grave reality shift sensation is happening because you are, in fact, no longer in the same timeline or because you have an inner ear infection.
In a very marginally better world, my alter ego who writes computer books for a living would be able to pitch Be Your Own Model/Photographer! Build Your Own Erotica Studio for OnlyFans, PornHub, Classic Pornography and More! and I'd be able to borrow/expense some better equipment.
Temporary pinned...
ABOUT ME:
🌹 Ryder, 29, tmasc genderfluid, disabled, queer
🌹 Snake parent and reptile aficionado
🌹 Sleepy, friendly, slightly feral
🌹 Goth & industrial, jfashion (EGL, jirai, suna)
🌹 Luv danmei/TGCF, vocaloid, goth clubs
WORK STUFF:
🌹 Chaturbate Mon-Fri, Twitch Mon-Thurs
🌹 Fansly, YourVids, Clips4Sale, Patreon, Etsy
🌹 Snapchat, custom media~
🌹 NSFW links here:
https://summerwing.carrd.co/
🌹 SFW links here:
https://9-life.carrd.co
I'm still pretty battered and scarred up between recovery from surgery, illness, accidental poisoning and life stuff, but @sacralisedacolyte helped me get some bathtub nudes.
I'm at about 1.5 years on T right now, about a year at well maintained levels, and I'm enjoying the changes it has made to my body.
This is overwhelmingly more the kind of body that I want to live in, in terms of everything from physical properties and responses to appearance.
I'm probably still a few years out from either of the other surgeries I'm considering, to give the testosterone time to make more changes, and there's more external stuff to do (so many more signs and sigils to have scrawled over me), but I increasingly see myself in images, rather than things that I desperately wish to reject.
I'm also, more than ever, painfully aware of the double standards imposed on estrogen-based bodies regarding so-called "healthy" body types and proportions, but that's probably for another post.
It took me a long time to get here, but puberty in middle age is going pretty well.
OH: "I don't get it. Back in my day we just lied about our age."