And now there is a freaking port on hold. Ican't win today.

The simple fact is, I'm simply tired of being tired. I slept great last night, thanks to Vallyrian root, and if I don't take it, I don't sleep. I thank God it isn't addictive, but still. Mom doesn't take anything now to sleep unless she has to. But this is the bullshit of the year, y'all.

Ugh, so everything is so hard. While I am not having the withdrawl symptoms from trazadone, the night sweats and such, I am having the irritation and the hard time thinking. I simply can do things but it takes me a monumental effort, because I just want to give up before I begin. It took me hours yes *hours* to activate another mobile carrier that was online. Literally. I got frustrated, put it down, came back to it, finally got the card to go through because I had to put the year, not the day of experation, and then when I did all that, I activated a thirty day free trial, but I had to put my address in first. It took minutes for me to think of how to write it even though I knew it. This is bullshit, but I would take this over the medication itself. Also, I put the wrong carrier. Postpaid not prepaid like I should have but everything else is correct. I don't even know y'all. I'm tired from that simple act of just doing it.

Ugh, these stink bugs are driving me crazy. They won't go away. 'Tis the season for stink bug.

So, I have ben hanging out with a friend I made in the mornings and helping to watch her kids. It really does make you have a better outlook on life when you actually hang out and talk to someone other than yur Mom. Yesterday, we hung out for three hours just talking and today we hung out for two. I was playing with her baby too. She's adorable.

Ugh, I need to find a game to keep my interest. RP prefered but anything will do. Promo, cr, nor all the other space games i have tried have not kept my interest and it is bugging me. I know that it will die down but even Vast Horizon, my go too hasn't kept my interest.

Ugh, you know you're old when you just yelled at the kid upstairs to stop stomping the floor down. In the mom voice. He stopped.

Everybody chill. That's the post.

Mainly, it is now just fighting through the laziness and fatigue.

Also, trazadone withdrawl is real y'all. Though I am still taking the vallyrian root, and my anxiety is not through the roof, I'm still tired, irritable, and pissy because lack of sleep makes Melissa a bitchy girl. But I don't want to get back on Trazadone either because I can remember a lot of things and I want it to stay that way.

Me: Takes vallyrian root for sleep. Also me: wakes up with no anxiety what so ever and is like... you know what? Fuck you trazadone, you do not win.

Ugh, two days of not having much sleep sucks. I feel gross. I think i'm sick too, so there is that. I took some of that Vallerian root last night and I didn't really eat anything. I woke up or kind of slid back into life around four and had to take nausia pills. They worked, but man, not fun.

Okay, so I have a question for the hive mind, when another version of Open EVV is published, because yes I saw that earlier, the eloquence open EVV does not automatically update, right? So we have to go get it? Asking because I am dumb Dora and need reassurance. It is quite responsive on my system, though I still like the other eloquence a little bit better, this one is actually quite good.

Omg, I just played spacejar and beat it. yaaas. It didn't take me long either. I was on a roll man.

Woke up this morning to the kid upstairs trying to come through our apartment floor with a fit to rival all fits. He was also hitting the wall. I yelled stop it and my Mother yelled stop it, guess what, he did. Maybe his parents need to do that every once and a while.

So with everyone talking about braille light 2000, I had the braille light mellinium and it actually had doubletalk voices on it. i liked those so much better than the weirdo nonreflective voice.

I wonder how much the new bookshare plus will cost? I can't even pay for the other one, much less bookshare plus.

I hate that i cannot unmute people. I didn't mean to mute them. rofl

Okay so is there a way on the audio games online thing you can set it to not crackle when you play a game? I dont know what setting to set and it's driving me bonkers.

So, reading the Bill Hodges Trillogy at the moment, and Stephen King, why do you /always/ have to hurt the damn dog. You /always/ do! Remember that Saint Bernard? I will stop reading this book. I swear.