This is not a „I am vegan therefore I can use AI” post, but some of you really have to calm down when it comes to criticizing people’s consumer choices.

Can consumer choices make a difference? Yes. But it’s not yours to judge people for them. This is not only true for disabled people, this is true for everybody. If you don’t understand that some people, for whatever reason, don’t have the capacity to question everything they consume, you look down on people from a point of privilege to feel morally superior, to make scapegoats, that is not a progressive attitude.

If you want to make the world a better place, explain things to people, offer solutions, show them a path, but leave it up to them if they have they want to choose it or not.

#intersectionality

Fasicm isn't only swastikas and concentration camps. Facism is when politicians, their politics and their propaganda frame and treat a huge group of people as expendable. The immigrants, the disabled, the unemployed. They make life harder for everyone and frame them, us as the scapegoats. Facism is already here in Germany. It never fully left.

#Antifa #disabled #intersectionality

This is a bit polarising, but I do think that autistic people are black and white thinkers while at the same time we are able to find the nuances in between. I have the impression that many neurotypical people think in shades of grey, but stay away from the black and the white to be able function.

This is goes into the same direction as the intense world theory and us having a spicy skill set.

Some years ago I read a tweet that stated, that autistic people's memories are sharp pictures while allistic people have kind of blurred movies. I don't know if that's true, but makes sense in this context.

It takes us so long to get the whole picture, but once we have it, it's very precise. We build it out of details until we understand the concept, it doesn't come to us naturally, it's hard work.

I made the experience that people perceive me as negative when I am rational and do not make positive assumptions. I can face my and other people's shadows, I am not afraid of them, they don't make me sad or even depressed. At the same time I can experience ecstatic joy, also known as autistic joy, that comes across as childlike or weird to neurotypicals.

So yeah, I live in the black and the white and all the colours this world has to offer. It's not rigidity, it's intensity and rationality.

#ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD #neurodivergent
@autistics

"Autism isn't a lifestyle, it's a severe psychological disorder."

No. Autism is a neurodivergence and a disability and it is a lifestyle.

My everyday life, how I cut and style my hair (or don't), the clothes I wear (or don't), the food I eat (or don't), the social life and relationships I have (or don't), how I spent my holidays (or don't), the books I read, the music I listen and dance to, the interests I have, how I communicate, my worldview, my financial situation, my sleep (or lack of), all this is part of being autistic for me.

Several things can be true at once.

#ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD #neurodivergent @autistics

Sunday is not so silent for me today. This morning I woke up to an E-mail informing me that the new TCL3 album "The State Of The Art" has been officially released on Bandcamp. That's makes me very happy, because while I have been listening to the pre-order on my notebook for about two weeks, I can share my joy with you now. These drum and bass artists use modern and classic analog equipment to create their music and I am very much in love with these sweet machines. 🥰🎶

I already added my favourite tracks Loyalty, Fluorine, Crimson Sky, Droids and 9-2 feat. Paragon to my Alien Girl playlist, but I enjoy listening and dancing to the whole album very much.

https://tcl3.techitch.com/album/the-state-of-the-art

#ElectronicMusic #DnB #Bandcamp

Ok, my brain is barely working and I might have missed something. Can someone please explain this goose thing to me?

Good morning ☀️
The people who like drum & bass that is a bit lighter than the neurofunk and techstep stuff in my Alien Girl playlist might enjoy my Sound Bubble playlist. Most of it is jungle with jazz and R&B vibes. Summer sound. 🤗🎶

https://bandcamp.com/kacihue/playlist/sound-bubble

#music #ElectronicMusic #DrumandBass

My crow friends watching the sunset together always touches me deeply, especially when the sky is so beautiful.
#Birds #Crows #AutisticJoy

The way people in burnout, disabled or chronically ill people, how spoonies cope with everyday day life might be inspiring and helpful for average people during extreme situations like this heatwave too.

1. Listen to your body and be kind to yourself. Don't push through. Allow yourself to relax, take naps, take a day off. You don't have to feel bad about it, it's self care, it's paying into the account of your physical and mental health.

2. Practice energy management, set priorities, think the plans you have through into detail, find aspects that might drain your energy and try to avoid them.

3. Keep a positive mindset, but don't force yourself into it. Sometimes things are difficult and emotions overwhelming. Allow yourself to feel these feelings, take your time to regulate yourself and change plans if necessary. A life on a low energy level can be enjoyable. Be in the moment, practice mindfulness, enjoy the little things, don't compare yourself to others. Do what feels right for you in the moment, create space for that.

What coping strategies do you have and how do they help you handling difficult situations and everyday life?

#ActuallyAutistic #disabled #Heatwave

I feel sad, lonely and disconnected. I often don't have the words to express what's really going on in my mind. I have difficulties connecting with others online. My thoughts are running through my brain so fast and the heat doesn't help. I washed my face three times already, but I can't stop crying. 😢

#neurodivergent #ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD

Double (?) empathy problem:

Autistic person asks for handling a situation in a specific way, that would accommodate their needs.

Allistic person: "I would prefer do it differently."

Autistic person explains in detail that they are asking for this accomodation, because it is necessary to make the situation accessible for them, not a nice to have preference.

Allistic person: "You don't have to explain yourself."

Autistic person: "Yeah, but I obviously have to. I wish I wouldn't and that you would have taken my need for accommodation seriously in the first place, but unfortunately that wasn't the case."

Allistic person: "No need to be rude. You are so sensitive."

Autistic person: 😐

#ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD #neurodivergent

Connecting over a special interest like electronic music is tricky, because the music I enjoy is very intense and it happens so often, that just one an aspect, which feels “wrong” (often it’s the vocals) can ruin a whole song for me.

Music has been a special interest of mine since I was a little girl, but I am not a musician, I listen, dance, make playlists and analyze it concerning the structure and the feelings the different elements create in me.

For about two months by now I have been in a hyperfocus on drum and bass music (Neurofunk, Techstep), especially the tracks of my favorite D&B artist. I bought his whole discography on Bandcamp and spent many hours a day listening and dancing to it, because I wanted to find out what makes a song work for me. Creating different playlists with his songs was like playing Lego for me, I had fun like toddler.

Now I want to find more music that works for me, but as I mentioned before, it’s pretty difficult, so I would be very happy about recommendations. The following playlist contains songs from several artists I currently like most, if some of them resonate with you, we might have a similar taste.

Boosts for visibility would be great. Thank you in advance.

https://bandcamp.com/kacihue/playlist/alien-girl

#electronicmusic #music #bandcamp

I have been deconstructing heteronormativity and neuronormativity for several years by now and it still baffles me how many of my problems with relationships and mental health issues were caused by not understanding my queerness and neurodivergence. Both are strongly intertwined.

The body dysphoria because I tried to fit gender norms.

Feelings of anxiety and guilt around relationships, because I am polyamorous and forced myself into monogamy.

Not understanding why I have been attracted to people, because I didn’t know that I am pansexual.

Not finding my people and being the crisis friend because I didn’t know that I am AuDHD.

The feeling of being weird and too much because I didn’t know what a hyperfocus is.

Ending up in abusive relationships, because I wasn’t educated about kinks and consent culture.

The missed opportunities, because of all that.

The more I unmask my neurodivergence and queerness in relationships and communicate my needs openly the better they become. Problems can be solved easily by communication instead of becoming a drama. It makes me truly love and accept myself and others.

While writing this text I had to think about a line in the song “Too good for giving up”:

“Reclaim your shame and dress it up in love.”

Happy Pride month :AuPan: 🏳️‍⚧️ 🏳️‍🌈

#queer #neurodivergent #pride

What is your opinion about SoundCloud?

I try to get away from streaming and buy as much music as possible on Bandcamp, but it seems like the best option to explore new music to me, especially when it comes to recommendations and some artists publish mixes or dubs there, not on Bandcamp.

#music #ElectronicMusic

I have a daily bathing routine in the middle of the day, which works like a restart for me. It not only helps to warm up during the winter, but also to cool down during the summer. Standing in a shower and all the humidity that is created by it feels the opposite of helpful during hot days for me. Relaxing while listening to music and barely moving in luke warm water almost feels like my private little summer pool. 🌊

#ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD #HeatWave

Nature created abstract art this morning.
#naturephotography #macrophotography #AutisticJoy

If you are part of a privileged majority (white, abled, neurotypical, cis, het, male, middle-class) and there's a post by a person or a conversation between people who are part of a minority or less privileged group (Black, poc, disabled, neurodivergent, trans, queer, female, poor), a statement like "we are all the same" or "we don't need labels" or "why does it matter" is dismissive and shows that you haven't deconstructed your problematic societal programming, like white supremacy or patriarchy.

Live with the fact that you are not the center of the world, the default, not included for that specific moment, because it gives you are glimpse of how marginalized people feel during their whole lives.

#intersectionality #disabled #neurodivergent
@autistics

People don't need to have bad intentions to do harm. Most harm is done by people who think that they are the good ones. Just wanting not to harm other people is not enough, we all have to actively work on understanding ourselves, our behaviour and take accountability for our actions whether we intended to do harm or not.

Every white person is inherently racist, that's our cultural programming and if we don't actively deconstruct this program, we are part of the problem. The same is true for misogyny, ableism, classim and every other kind of social programming. Belonging to a marginalized group doesn't prevent us from being influenced by society, from internalising harmful thoughts and behaviour.

What is true for social programming is also true for how our upbringing, our personal experiences shaped our thoughts and behaviour. I don't think everyone needs psychotherapy, which is not the one size fits all solution anyway. There are many different approaches how to do inner work, but everyone has to do some kind of inner work and in my experience that is an intense, difficult and lifelong process.

#intersectionality #mentalhealth

I like to explore unconventional methods and perspectives that help me to deal with every day life, process emotions, handle difficult situations and do my inner work.

I always had a bit of an interest in war strategy and military. One of the methods they use in the military to help soldiers regulate themselves are strict routines for example. So what is framed as disordered by medical professionals in autistic people, is actually a very efficient way of self regulation and functioning. We somewhat use military methods to cope with everyday life. Just saying.

Another aspect that is very important to reduce cortisol levels in soldiers is avoiding uncertainty. AuDHD people don't like that either, right? Waiting mode, unsolved problems are very difficult for us. That's not because there's something wrong with us, it is stressful and spiking cortisol levels for everyone, but most people are not aware of that to the extent we are. The NT world is so stressful for us by default and therefore we react more sensitive to that to the point we can develop CTPSD. We are the canaries in the coalmines here again.

There are other parallels between AuDHD preferences and military methods like needing clear rules and instructions. Having to read between the lines in a life threatening situations is obviously not a good method of communication.

We like to plan things in detail and develop strategies based on the analysis of precise information and not rough assumptions.

Then there is this aspect of taking care of our objects, not only using them, but wanting to understand how they work, being able to repair them ourselves if possible.

Night shift? No problem for the AuDHD night owl.

Being hyper focused in a dangerous situation so strongly that we can suppress our need to eat or drink, our abilities for problem solving and recognising details, the more I think about it, the longer the list becomes. Lists...

AuDHD people would make excellent soldiers if we weren't so sensitive to sensory input, injustice and nonsensical hierarchies.

A few weeks ago I found out that cleaning my bathroom is a perfect way for me to ground myself in difficult situations, where I have a lot of processing work to do. I did that today and I that inspired me to write this post.

#ActuallyAutistic #AuDHD #neurodivergent
@autistics

#SilentSunday #nature #AutisticJoy