Getting my degree shows what a difference having the right support in place can make.
I tried to get a degree twice before, but had undiagnosed ADHD. Once I was diagnosed, and had support, not only did I succeed in getting my degree, I graduated with first class honours.
I am so damned proud of myself!
Guess what?
I graduated today. I finally did the thing! I am now Open University Alumni!
Hello.
I have had a very eventful week. The details of which I cannot talk about. It has been difficult but ultimately will be very good for a close family member.
I am exhausted
If I could give those I love one gift it would be to see themselves as I see them.
More and more I find myself thinking that of something is worth doing, it is worth doing slowly. By which I mean with care, thoughtfulness and patience. This brings growth, wellbeing and skill development in the person.
What is rest?
This is a question I have been pondering recently.
I used to think that rest was sleeping, or sitting quietly, not doing anything. But now I don't think that is always true.
Rest, for me, is doing sonething that helps me feel better.
So knitting/crochet is rest,
doing an escape room is rest,
watching the stars is rest
etc
Yet, there is still a bit of me that feels guilty about "doing things when I should be resting"
Brains. Can't live with 'em, can't live without 'em.
Hello.
A couple of people have asked if I'm ok, as I haven't been posting.
Truthfully, the answer is no, but I am surviving.
I am taking some time to rest, as I am exhausted (note, I do not mean tired. I mean chronic illness, grief & trauma induced, utter exhaustion).
Sometimes that rest is sleeping, other times it is laughing with friends, but online, text based communication is a lot right now so I am likely to not be around for a bit.
I will return, once my spoons allow
Today I miss my brother
I have no idea why today particularly.
It is not a birthday, an anniversary, or other significant date.
I just really keenly feel a space in my heart where he should be.
I will roll with this wave of grief. There is more time between each one now and I have a chance to breathe.
I am starting to heal around the scar that loss leaves.
The edges are not so raw and tender.
I am starting to have hope.
But today, I miss my brother
Hello.
If you are feeling a bit down, try looking up corgi crossbreeds.
They all appear to be corgis cosplaying as different dogs and it is truly a delight.
Erm.
Excuse me.
I just want to let you all know that despite not posting much I have been kept afloat of late by reading your absolute nonsense.
Please, continue with the shit posts, ludicrous ideas and ridiculousness. These things are good.
Thank you
Good Morning Fediversians. Beige blessings be upon you :bb:
I haven't been around so much of late, I fell out of the habit whilst my nephew was here, and then have been readjusting to life as it is at the moment.
I am starting to realise that I have no external deadlines right now, and this has been tricky to get my head around and be motivated to do things.
However, I am starting to relax. I am managing to put some things into my week that give me some structure but that also help me to relax and be.
I am enjoying pottering about the house and starting to reclaim the house as my domain - something I haven't been able to do for a few years now due to one thing and another. I have been making bread, and even managing to cook dinner occasionally. I know this doesn't sound like much but is a huge step for me right now.
Today involves crochet and some online support sessions, as well as packing to go down to Eldest's house tomorrow for a few days.
What are you up to today?
#GoodMorning #Today #BeigeBlessings #Recovery #ChronicIllness
Bah! I am trying to take a manual coffee espresso maker apart to clean it up, descale it etc so that it can still be used. But one of the screw heads is knackered.
It's an allan (alan?) key head though so I am unsure what to do next.
I have left it on the table whilst I consider my options.
I have been enjoying the blackberries off the bramble bush in my garden that appeared about 20 years ago.
I particularly like that I have very little involvement in the blackberry process. We just hack it back once it has stopped fruiting and next year, more blackberries.
What else can I grow that has a similar amount of interaction?
RE: https://mastodon.social/@benroyce/117006985794183669
Imagine seeing this if you'd never seen an elephant!!
Thankfully though, I have seen an elephant and so this is adorable
Good Morning! Beige blessings be :bb:
Today I have to drive for about 7 hours to end up right back where I started.
I am taking Nephew home and hopefully driving back here, though I have arranged that if I need to I cam stay with my sister tonight and drive back home tomorrow.
It will very much depend on how the journey goes!
It has been so lovely having him here. He is an amazing young man, challenging at times, but wonderful. He has a pure heart and a brilliant sense of fun and mischief. His dad would be so very, very proud of him!
What is your day looking like?
I just realised, my Nephew never talks about "My house" or "Home".
The place he lives he calls "Aunty [Name]'s house".
His house no longer exists. It burnt down, taking his dad and little brother.
He is such an amazing young man, there is such pain there but he still laughs easily, is full of the same mischief his dad had, and has such a beautiful presence about him - just like his dad did.
Just wanted to send love & hugs.
I have not been able to keep up with fedi with having my nephew with me, but I have thought of you a lot.
Big big hugs xx
I am The Best Aunty ™️
Nephew had messed up his lego kit and was getting very angsty about it.
I was able to work out what the problem was and fix it, and have therefore reached the status of Lego Guru in the mind of Nephew.
To the point where when I was having a lie down earlier and he needed some help, he didn't want to ask Husband who was sat right there, but wanted to come ask me instead.
Thankfully, Husband headed him off at the pass, and managed to help him out. When I got up, Nephew told me all about it at quite some length.
RE: https://beige.party/@adhdeanasl/116975269604518806
WOOHOO!!!!!
WEEKEND BEIGE IS GO! THIS IS NOT A DRILL!